My love is always sour to sweet~

Everyone was say, after raining day must have a good sunshine day.. it is really agree~ No matter how was the argue is serious, if we are fall in a deep and strong love, we have nothing will easily broke it our relationship, instead we will know each other more then before, admitting that when we argue must say those hurting speech behind or in front, but who else know it is just a angry speech... even i know also get hurt, human is always like to live at the loss what.. just let it be, should be very happiness after the Raining day ^^

...
I like the feel when you wake up early than me, you softy fondle my face when i open my eyes, i saw you, and i saw your slight smile too, very anxious that i can always live in the moment~ Sometime just let me issue in the dream... How sweet is it~ occasionally, i just keep think, when you just will be my MEN... my only men... it is really over think, i know it.. but it is really sweet enough, i enjoy much~ GENUINE**
I just like the moment when i talking the marry/wedding party to you, you just keep say me "fa qiao", but at last you also answer my question could it be say that no??!! ^^ heehee~ But the most funny question i ask is, dar.. would you accompany me to the born operation room?? you laugh like nothing and answer me, yer..dwn, why i want accompany you go in, after i have sequel... I know i really make him crazy, scream... did he will let me make til become insane?? haha, hope it is not yarhx^^

Enough for today, gonna stop.. cause my mouth muscle was so ache.. cause this blog just let me smile and smile and smile~ =)

Choose to be good part 2

help me~!!! i was insomnia....... many trouble was follow me.... can i pass life like smooth and happiness with my lover... please, i have no more energy to go this challenge... i need more n more energy to felt me up... My dar, I LOVE YOU, it is truth, no one can change it~ Believe me, i could make you happy~ 


Tomorrow have morning class, hope after this i can sleep very well... night Honey Eddie, night world~

Choose to be good~

如果我说爱你=那我真的是爱你好想大声的说爱你

如果我说想你=那我真的是想你，好想马上见到你

如果我说不要生气了好吗？=那时心里真的会害怕你不理我

如果我说不要用这样的态度=是希望你可以好好的，好好的听我说

我想拥有一段长久的恋情，那需要付出多少的代价，多少的泪，多少个波折才能顺利的拥有～ 我很努力的，想要把时间拉的没有我们似乎得那么长～可以吗！！

姐妹快结婚了，似乎占到了她的喜悦和迫不及待想要迎接的宝宝，好幸福，她告诉我虽然她还年轻，但是他不后悔...他希望安全的把宝宝生下来，我那时候还想说如果我能拥有～好像有点" 汉嫁“能和自己爱的人每天在一起，那是多么好的一件事。

他们都说不介意收到我的喜讯，她们讲的容易，但我也希望可以～但事实上，我不可能...

姐妹都说我很幸福，其实我也蛮暗爽的，因为我也觉得...你们继续称赞我吧...我快飞上天宣誓我过的快乐幸福，谢谢你亲爱的～你说我浩恋也好什么都好吧～我就是这样...

但是在我还没能和我的他分享时，我们吵架了...什么事都好～只要他生气就会说些伤人的话语，我不知道他是无疑还是被冲昏了头，但我还是希望能把他哄回原本快乐的心情，但偷偷告诉你们，这是一件非常难的事～～我让他又爱又恨，可是我不是故意的啦，自己白木有什么办法～只能说对不起，也不能再担保下次不敢了～怕我自己在重返～只好默默地替自己加油咯～希望他不要生气，(**,) 原谅我嘛^^

Deeply Feeling

Sudden think back, before i couple with my boy, i do everything also as i like, just follow what i want to do and never give any report to my partner, except my parent, no matter my friends date me out, i will never bother others comment, but now anything i do, anywhere i go, i will just like to share everything with you, although i didn't some shame shame thing i just didn't hide it and just did it... Together with you, i never act like others, just follow the feel~ angry was angry. moody was moody, happy was happy, jealous was jealous... i love my life right now, although i hate you keep talking about something that i ignore~ but you try to enrage me as well~ you know that i were not really angry you for few hours... even 15 minute... how sweet is it~
Everyday i wish the time go faster to 6++ cause you finish work then we can meet, everyday i feel the happiness thing is i can meet you XD...
Before i'm a girl that really hope i can ask for more and good thing, i envy people take branded thing, after that i will ask for... but now, i thing normal also will be the best, we can't really follow the fashion upgrade, however they get a branded thing, but money is get from others way not get it self also useless^^
You change me a lot... thank you for hundred, thousand time... LOVE you.... My BF....Dar**

Relax

Have a fishing trip on date 7 May, is such a good day but less fish... all become no mood. And i go there just eat and eat, phone no line, although bring along my lappy but no line also can't load movie~ damn it... i swear no next time i been there~!! And i miss my darling so much, can't without phone if he is not around me...
But seem he so happy, cause he go boom boom shake shake~ notty boy.. hahaha~!!
Feel like i have a dark skin wey... there have a very very bright sun.... morning and nite also feel hot~~~ How to live there?? Mummy bring many food to there, and i ate maggie and bread with tuna... now think back have a bit yiewww~ gonna stop few day to eat,... on diet~ but is hard, cause my darling don't like i on diet, if he know... he will ask me eat alot... hahahaha... funny him rite~^^ i know, that what i love him much n much, more n more, forever n ever <3

My mum get sick at there... soar throat, pity my mummy.... but lucky one day den back ady, if not~!! die there soon~!! My eldest brother also fall to sick, today never attend for class, curi tulang, keep ask me write letter... scream~!!

Todayssss

Yup, today.. wake early to yoga class, actually not really want to wake...(keep forcing)
Today i will be so busy, go maxis and tm net help my darling done his thing, but at last one thing also didn't did, cause all need his self to settle it, and i have a important call need to call out!!Finally done all thing, and i hope it is helpful for them, i already try my best to tell what i know, and hope it is okie. 
My turn, i haven't done my web design assignment, and tomorrow is deadline, relax relax, i will do later at my friends house on 4++, she gonna teach me, lucky^^
Sunday were celebrate mother's day at Port Dickson will my whole family, cousin sister brother with my grandmother too, grandma not feeling well, sending her to hospital, thank god, my grandma was better now and just need have some medicine and need eat some soft thing... all of us was take care of my grandma, we care her and love her much~<3
My lovely was in annoying recently, many thing make him moody, and i try to help him, but i just can help a little simple thing, cause i'm not really helpful. I gonna start my class tmr, will less accompany him ady, love dearly~ miss miss miss.... But we also will meet even is hard to meet, cause we need it more close, hiak hiak hiak... i wanna  feel his breathe, more near.. so crazy me~!! like a people who was abnormal~ hahah


Gonna go have a nap, yoga make me tired like a bird have a broken wing, can't even fly anymore~ Short story from me about "Today"

                                                
                                          SHORT STORY ABOUT "TODAY"

Something about my short hair life 2011

Sudden think that i really so brave to cut along my long long hair, someone else say long hair suitable me, but some say short hair look more suitable you, better than the messy long hair, messy is i add for myself... Everyone say my short hair make me look like so individuality and hard to near by me.. but friends i'm the most friendly dude~ ^_^

Talking about today, early in the morning wake up, 12++ just have my breakfast, why? cause mummy wanna go bank and this and that blak blak blak... my mum's best friend bring me to tesco's saloon to cut my hair, is expensive, but it is good value for money.. this is what i want!!! and also buy a new cover, at last my wallet only have 5 buk... how come?!! too bad... Shenny Gan wallet only have 5 buk, mission impossible, can't spend money anymore, gonna earn earn earn, cuz i'm waiting Iphone 5 dude~!! 5 buk also gonna endure~ 5 more month.. SOON ~ hahaha, darling say he gonna change together with me... good job..

Hmm... feel like not going to do web design assignment eh, after bec from PD, must go please from my secondary school classmate... We are so lucky meet at the same college and study in the same course but different sem... Many thing i get can from her.... End~~

Tomorrow nite gonna move to PD, once again say cause sunday have Khoo family gathering, and i gonna stop meet my lovely from date April 30...2,15 a.m Now is sleepy so...how depress is me now... aikss~ Bye

Good nite God, Good night adult and teenager ofcuz my DArling~ love you all~

feel nothing~

ORhx~!! feel nothing at all... turn around the bed, sit infront of the tv keep change channel~ and cough cough cough~!! upgrade my blog, check along the facebook and twitter... hmm... sumore download new themes for my lovely bb~ Bore Bore boR...


Dunoe wather today can meet my lovely not, miss him so, he feel like so busy, cause never give a message to me..hmmm~  Today thursday, still got two day gonna move to Port Dickson, cause have a family gathering... End~


Yesterday went to darling's pub <Highway Star Cafe> have alot of customer there, and finally i can play pool, darling always donwan accompany me to play... but also bad, cuz 2:1 i lost 1~ he laugh me so bad again~ Blek, one time i will kill you as well~ hahahah...  hope HWS always alot customer, love the scene~ i mean darling... 
Is time almost 5 o'clock, auntie didn't find me, i think she will not go pub today, den i just can wait darling cum meet me lorhx~ 

                                             <End of the LAME story of me>

Falling to the sick way

Seem like few day didn't hang for blog, have a bad news, get sick badly dude~ hmmm, get sick at the holiday time, how fun isit~ >.<"  Finally finish exam, feel relax? not really!! worry exam result also.. wokay, just forget it...

Someone is in toilsome life, earn earn earn, and work work work, asking who isit, ofcuz my dearest. He is keep on-ing give me surprise all the time, how to say, angry, happy, moody, depress... but mostly happy cause he with me~ [ shaming >"< ] i seriously hope his life will be more stable, not going to be more toilsome~ truly wishing~!! Truly love him, Truly need him as well~! Hmmm... SOmething is deeply disturb my thinking, can i stay there all the time?? hahaha, i love the King size bed lorhx, i don't want a single bed~!! [ get that what i mean behind of the word, arhx huh... try to get it] Sudden think that If i have a home for self ofcuz with my lovely, how sweet isit. keep on dreaming, i know~!!
Think that weekend can't accompany him already so disappointed here, ours day... aikss~ no comment, cause this is an order from my parents...darling, you know i love you rite~^v^

Recently earn how much, den spend how much..damn rite~!! gonna less less less hang out, but think it back, i never hang out also, where i spend yarhx~ ==" LMAO ~ whatever, during the holiday i deeply clean up my room and my super messy cupboard on monday, hardworking.. nope~!! is too boring!! But lucky still got SoMEone accompany me go swimming and my yoga class.... also feel depress boring, cause leaf one more thing it will be all perfect, Him was with me~!! yuuhiuuu~ sometime?? Twitter, and facebooking~ talking about twitter, it is a emo place for all my follower... so so so emo.. because twitter is who follow you or you follow who the person just will get see your title, maybe..just i simply guess~LAME~

Bye,... "There is a hero come to me~" going to meet my hubby~

Date: 26.04.2011
Time: 8.45 p.m
Day: Tuesday

why

昨天，我们还好好的...可是我看到了，“包容，我忍” 怎么感觉我好白木，要委屈爱我的人～眼泪忍着不让他流出～可能，我是接受不了他告诉全世界的人我有多委屈你， 或许就像你说的，我已经没有价值了～心里又浮现了莫名的害怕，感觉我们会因此而把距离拉远了， 真的很失败～就算我失去你，也是我自己拿来的～！！我不能怪谁～ T-T

昨晚， 回家时还打算告诉我的朋友我们比之前更恩爱了，把我的快乐和他们分享～ 最后聊到1++， 今天早上看到了他的comment还傻傻的开心了一番，但其实他生气了...或许我真的过分了～他真的生气我了！怎么最进我都在惹他生气，到底我是怎么了， 他说我很恶心....心再次流血了～我几时才会学会把话说出来.....

我害怕，他不会是我的最后一位～感觉好不舒服，委屈他，真的～

如果可以，今天开始除了他还没睡之外要陪他，至于其他的我都一律不理了～！！！时间一到就睡觉好了～他包容，我也要体谅他的苦心～我一定一定不能再说一套做一套～！！！！ 如果我在说一套做一套，那我就.......××对自己发了一个很毒的誓..... 

对不起～抱歉

a LITTLE BIT more~

Finally everything have been settle, i lack of little bit i gonna lost you because of friends~ Everytime argue because of friends, hmmm~ hope that not happen again, and i hope our love were stay strong and strong~!! This is what show that although how much love you are, will just because a simple or normal or terrible or serious and change everything, so... a couple gonna accommodate oneself to other~


I just back from my collage, examination today, drive to coll, rain harder and i gonna drive slow slow... and now have a cold weather, morning 6++ oledy start rain and till 12++ still raining~ nothing special happen for today, and about my exam, just a word to describe that was " successfully" thank god~!! 


Gonna go rest for awhile, have a deep nap~ hahaha... nite my men, nite the cold weather~!! 


Missing is still processing~ darling... love you~ 




Day: Saturday
Date:16.04.2011
Time: afternoon 02.06 p.m                          bye bye~ ^^




                                                              ~ The End~

Shenny! cheer up...

Early in the morning, i just felt to sleep not long ago...but mum awake me from the sadness morning~ Again i'm alone at home... watching the tv, but not really care what the movie showing about! I'm emptying~ 
Exam tomorrow, who can pull me back from the devil side, n the emptying place~ seem like never trying to do revision, god~!!
Argue~ Argue~ Argue~ i hate argue~!! i dun like argue.... 
Happy cause i get your msg in the morning, but why you ask me don't worry... what mean does you don't worry~!! you ask me don't worry seriously i more worry~!! 


SHENNY FEEL DEPRESS NOW~!!!!

The word of fuck off!!

The time now is only 12.13 a.m , and we have a seriously argument... but this argument we just keep silent~ 
The problem is me, angry him cause the friend problem!! And he feel that i'm care my friend more than him. When on the way back home, trying to talk with him, but i just stop myself, cause he have few bottle of beer, and he need work tomorrow, he have a lot of pressure for his work, as i am his's girl friend i never did what a girlfriend suspost to be. When i reach home, i think that i wanna find him to have a talk, but at last i never, i tot find him tomorrow at least he already calm down and relax, but he post some hurt sentences on public place, and talking that me already no more value to let him care anymore, he already feel blue. This few word, can seriously make me feel like jumping on the higher mountain and feel the pain before you die. 
And i trying to call him, but he was angry with me and never wanna answer my call, he just ask me "fuck off"............. and i know he really very very very angry, cause he never say that to me~ Good bye~ i don't care , i just care what ur deeply mind thinking!!








                                                ~End for the story~

5 month to go

经过了多少的不舍流过多少的泪，让我更懂得珍惜你~ 往往我都在想，如果我们没有办法走到最后，我该怎么办？ 我无法想象那时的情景... 
我似乎觉得我们都很压抑，因为都爱对方爱的出乎自己意料...甚至愿意为彼此而改变，让自己和另一半过得快乐～
我看到了你的改变～我看到了你的努力和辛苦为将来做打算，还蛮替你感觉到累～【心疼】我～有改变吗？或许又吧～但不比你多....我好想脾气改了很多～忍耐度也强了！！哈哈...但偶尔还是会对你耍脾气，就是喜欢你哄我开心！想回去，你生气我好想都没有哄你，但现在应该有少少进步了吧？！！但我还是笨蛋～哈哈....不会说好话的笨蛋～
我好喜欢看你的笑容～真的，多么的迷人～但迷我就好.... end for my men~


recently join for yoga class, i seem like is the class most young junior~ all the senior so pretty n fit, and most important is there are oledy have age!!! still look young n pretty.. envy, i gonna be like them~!! haha, but not auntie, is fit~ now whole body's muscle feel so pain n ache~ hmmm... but i won't give up.... cuz i dun want be fatty but fit~ haahaa!!!  end for my day story


i miss my men badly, although we just meet at yesterday, but why i still miss him bad~ this is what call i officially missing you**miss is a kind of sick** Darling, xin ku ni larhx~ ai ni ♥


Exam is cuming;this saturday, but seriously i have no that moot\d to TOUCH the note at all~ omgah... i'm so confuse, cuz i hope sunday cuming faster, but i don't hope saturday cuming faster~!! aiksss.... 






The End~
Date: 14,04,2011
Day: Thursday
Time: 02:37 p.m

My Monday, BLUE~

Long time didn't write blog ady luu~ seem like alot think gonna share but dun know start from where...
Skip Skip Skip~


Hmmm...my darling recently so busy, gonna work for two job. Why? yea, is me... i smart to spend his money, so he gonna earn many many money for me to spend~ ( everyone say this, but is not the truth ) haahaa~ But also good he work at here, cause at last i no need one year meet one time hahaa...END~


Someone, make my life change... everyday officially missing my men, feel sweet n warm~ However we can't meet for everyday, but we enjoy all the moment we have. I feel so happiness, cause he let me feel that we near our future not far ady, he become a men that very careful!! happy happy~


I love you, please say you love me too~
Till the end of time..
These three word,
they could change our lives forever,
And i promise you that e will always be together~


THE END~
day: monday
date: 04.07.2011
time: 02.17 p.m

Celine Dion - I Love You

我的爱情是幸福の

好几天没有写部落格了，不知要从何说起过去几天の故事~ 就从20号起吧...
那天开始是我的日子过得最漫长の一次，因为我の他出国去了，送他到巴士站，依依不舍的离开，眼泪在眼眶里打滚. 只能告诉自己不准哭~就这样；走の远远的....
之前，只要一放学我就会是第一位离开课室の人，因为恨不得要赶快见到他...就算再赶我都不会有半句怨言，反而觉得那是一种我们相处の方式，那是幸福の。=）可是那天我既然2点多了我都还在课室里，因为觉得回去好像没什么事情可以做。回家的路程，我好想念他哦~才一天，或许这就是在别人口中所说的，一日不见如隔三秋.....>"<
突然想到情侣之间吵架是很普遍的事情，但是怎么我都害怕和你吵架，总觉得每次和你吵架我的心都好痛好害怕，会有种会失去你的感觉！但是吵架过后我都会很开心，因为....你是在乎我的~！！哈哈
今天见到你好兴奋啊~！！！！恨不得把你抱得紧紧的....
♥  我爱你 ♥  BB^^,


(好久没有用华话写那么长了~）=）

Five day more~

Someone complain with me neh, say why i wrote that R.O.W at facebook and my blog. Hahhahaaa.. He funny, so easy guess thing also want ask werh... ofcuz is i wanna share apart of my sweet love to my friends marhx, how sweet that we are...  Today we stick together for whole day, feel so good, haahaa....But after this, don't know still when just can feel it ady luu, cuz my darling gonna go fight for his future... i try to not stop him, try to let him go, try to accept, try to understand him, i wanna be the only one girl support behind him.

Thx my dear classmate told me this:

♥ It would comes to you if it is yours

    even you ignore

    treat it as a mission impossible

    to challenge both of your LOVE

    think that how deeply is your love.♥

It make me feel relax after i hear this, hope my darling get to see this too~

Make it busy all my time~ busy life sudden i need it~Come to me....!!!

Darling....LOVE you.... ♥




Date: 14.03.2011
Day: Monday
Time: 03.24 a.m

About my "friend"

These is what i give "their" comment.

You all is trying to make up like a pinky pig...
You all trying to be like mature women from 19 to 30 years old~
But the conclusion is... the thinking is just 10 years old~!!


Just because a little case then will be like children, i do want friend with you anymore~!! hmm.... so childish? So many year's friend ady, still can be like this... if you all really seem her is the one member of you all, you all will not hurt her the second time~!! Someone are so childish and also didn't care people feeling, the every word you post is really can hurt her badly, i donoe isit really you post for let her know by roundabout, and you can say she sit the place without asking, but everything is just happen for few minute...or few days~ really hope you all can think clearly isit she is you all best friends~!! and please don't hurt her any more~ she is not under control by u all and she is not strong as you all see~!!


♥ Husband time ♥
My darling was become more more sweet recently.... so happy when he ask for registry office wedding... He make me feel so warm and i have a lot of sense of security~!! Thx god to let me know him and be my close relative. However he will go for a oversea job, but i believe myself, and i was believe him too... 
He is the only one men will disturb my feeling, what he did, and what he say... i will remember all... He told me that if he never know me, maybe now he will not so hard and immediate move to s'pore... And if i never know you, maybe i will not be mature and i will not cut my short hair..haahaa. You teach me a lot, you bring a lot of memories. And you also told me that you don't ever want to leave a good girl friend just like me, you don't mind to build up a small and warm family with me, darling.. say the true... i really sweet enough with it... my tear is gone down for all the time.... i love you my darling hb~!! muackss...
However we gonna stop for meet few month or few year... i will wait you back~ do't worry me, i will take care myself...and be a good good girl~ cheer for you job... fight for ur future~!!! 

♥ NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE ON YOU ♥

Shenny have new LOOK

Finally i really go an cut a short hair, thx my darling give me this suggestion and give me alot of brave to go did it... 1st cutting not so short, so second day i go cut again, now really enough short. Everyone feel so surprise, wow...you cut ur longggg hair~ haahaa... Change some new marhx, abit regret didnt cut when new year lorhx, sob sob.


Hmmm.. Shenny again start to worry lorhx, darling not going to work at Penang ady, cuz something happen, but more few day he will be at S'pore ady, work together with his brother. I gonna go register a passport now. If not how i gonna go meet him. Pity my dar was moody for whole day, asking him why but he just say don't know. But at last he also telling me the true, he is worry about future, first i tot he is worry about his own future, but the true is he is worry about "our" future. Maybe i not enough mature, i can't really understand his mind, darling.. sorry... i will try to understand it. 


Tomorrow have 2 class to go, morning till afternoon. Boring class~ but what to do, if not go... gonna resit again lorhx... waste money, waste time...Now i gonna resit my General Trining Language, too bad... the marks is low, no presentation no tast~!! so, can't complain anything. Just can resit again, but lucky our lecture is good enough. thank him so much~!! Regret didn't attend for his class last time.~!!\


Date: 07.03.2011
Day: Monday (midnight)
Time: 12.56 a.m

knowledge

Now a day, many thing i just will get know from their blog or those connection web. Although last time we are friend like hell, but till the end i will not be the most understand them. Recently what are they doing, anything happen between them? I do know, seriously...feel so deeply unhappy. I just can kept it all my question mark in my mind. Maybe one day.....[ hope you all in happy]


Shenny was always countdown for the day that we can meet together, today will be the last February day, March you will be at there rite, don't even tell me you will not be there so soon, but i know you are cheating me rite, you will be there soon rite.... i didn't have any request, i just hope i can pull all my time, i just wanna spend my time on you. This time i'm seriously can't custom ~!! I don't wanna hear you say you will be there tomorrow, i hate you always play with me like this, i will really upset~!!


I remember last time you ask me inside the car, " how to say if i accidently tomorrow gonna go, you will be ok right?" And that time actually my heart was like get fire burning, but i just smile on you. this is only one response i can give. At the same time you ask me this question too, " If i say i don want to attend the job any more, how was your feel?" I remember last time i answer you this, " don't give any hope, i scare i will disappointed after you never do this." Actually my heart have million of hope you don want go. But i know i was dreaming, i won't dream come true, slowly feel that i'm so selfish, i selfish to want you be with me forever, sudden think that i'm childish, like a small girl thinking. But i hope everything will be so fine n fine~ 


Tomorrow have a class, early in the morning, should sleep early... but i haven't done all the graph. my godness~!! will get "gun" shot tomorrow... 


                                                                The End for today....<3>

Xue Ni~

Today was wake earlier like normal, wait all my family member wake up go have breakfast together. But too bad, i wake at 9++ wash my clothe, the time is almost 10, but they haven't awake... god~!! 11++ just went to have breakfast. Finish my breakfast then go saloon meet my darling, he went to cut hair, he cut a short hair but not too short, all because " jimat "~ After that we went back home, half on the way, we go take away "rojak mee, and ABC" back home to enjoy together... I say share with him, but at last he go cook maggie to eat, cause the food is just half way on his stomach. Auntie told us that dinner we gonna go have steamboat ; at steamboat king restaurant. 
.....at the time we have a long nap......
5++ i was awake, and auntie is playing her's iphone, darling is still in sweet dream. Watching tv till 7 prepare to have dinner. The steamboat food is quit ok, but their sea foods is so bad, and i was get itchy on that time, do know why. too bad~ desert ice-cream. 
And i was forget today i request to my dar to go watch movie, and he remember but told me last minute, actually he wanna watch night movie, but i have class tomorrow so cancel it, but he was funny, he buy a video movie back home and watch inside the room, romantic... air-con, just didn't have pop-corn~ But for me already so contented. Thx darling to content me that i want to watch movie. love you much. 
When you gonna go for work? Shenny can ask for stay??


Day: Sunday
Date: 27.02.2011
Time: 12.30 a.m


                                                 The End

Shenny “Fantabulous”

Give me a reason that why recently i wake so earlier...hmm..maybe i sleep enough...

Do know countdown for how many day ady lorhx...!!

Yesterday night have dim sum at Darling house, yummy... have it together feel so warm!! i love it.. hope i can have it everyday...accidently hear you say you will start your work on next month. Hmm... too bad, start to worry lorhx...but what to do, can't do anything anymore...Stop here..enough!!

Just pass here for awhile....to be continue....

Pain life

Recently really feel that my body so weak, cough, flu, fever....some more gastric~!! have a terrible pain~!! wut the~!!! Ate many different type of medicine, but useless...weakness body i have~!! Today 1st day i went back to coll, a bit can't custom, when the alarm was ring, i was turn off it, and still stick v the bed and my blanket, so warm~ didn't have the mood to went to the class.
When wake up gastric again, and also a bit stomach pain, inside have a lot of AIR~!! I think that my Auntie gonna Visit me soon, so make me not feeling well this few week...bad mood! And very serious is i was vomit on yesterday, cause i have ate the ginger soup... maybe too full already~
My lovely get me a cup of herb's drink just now, control up my cough. i think i really need to go for a medical check up, if not keep pain also useless~!!! He care me a lot, thank my darling... love you much, muacksss~ <3


And last, should i cut short hair... 
Darling idea, never try, never know....
friend idea, wow, what happen to you, serious wan cut so short arhx, don't regret meh? think properly eh... later cut ady can't do anything ady lolx.
Mine, i wanna cut, but what short's hair style should i cut for.. think think think... hmmm (o.o)


Sleepy... good night lorhx, ate flu medicine feel sleepy again, stay strong, ms.shenny~


Date: 22.02.2011
Time: 12.39 a.m
Day: Monday -> Tuesday 

The day was changing to DARK

Date: 18.02.2011
Time: 12.56 a.m
Day: Thurday [midnight]

Shenny was crying badly here, why... cause some one that important; most lovely people was going to leave her and go for attend a job at far away...So apologize that i can't accompany him all the way. I will take care myself without you, i will eat medicine, drink more water, remember all the thing that you want me to care. I will try my best to custom all the day without you.
Darling, i already start to miss you much... let me hug you once again, tightly hugging you!!! You ask me to stay strong, don't easy to give up....ask me wait you back~ Dar, no worry... i will wait you back although 1 year more.... my heart now was like get burn harder~!! Tear was not keeping keep dropping on my eyes... how pain, how love dearly, how mm sek duck that i have.... 
Shenny Gan, no more crying, no more complain... He is just go for work few year, not really ever and never coming back...believe him and trust him... listen what he say... wait him back~!!! This is the one challenge in our life... 5 year... very fast...trust self trust him...
Love you....more than i can say....
meet you next day.....didn't have a date to comfirm....

when i was lame at home

Something make me feel WEIRD~!!

Last time you guy not very hate both gerhx meh? Still ask me dowan contact with both tim, but now seem like so best friend dude~ hmm.... really weird~!! last time you hate me i hate you... now WAW.... so best friend... [simply share sudden mind] @@

Valentine's day... Again celebrate with my dad's birthday, have dinner at outside with family... 

...HAPPY...

But i'm sick after that... caugh, flu and start fever at the midnight, my eldest brother take medical for me when i was blur.... New year haven't finish already sick like hell... what the...

During the New Year, i really fat alot... must keep fit after my dar go to Penang work... when he was there, i will automatic slim down, cause i will miss him much... Hope he have a good result for his work... Friday was coming, darling really will go to attend for the job, mm seh duck dude.... but what to do, gonna accept also... and i must be a guai lui at here, if not he will so worry, can't stay a strong heart at there...!! Darling, our challenge is coming, cherish all the time with you... love you, muacksss~ <3

Just now auntie again talking the same topic, :" i also mm sei duck eddie go so far work, but what to do... he still young gonna go for a try get more knowledge, i'm regret last time hold him tight never let him go learn some useful thing, want him stay at the pub also useless, still so young keep drink keep smoke also not a good choice for him, his's sister also ask why want him go so far to work, so.. you want follow us to penang have a look."

For my respon is... even those i really can't accept he go so far for work and not really every week come back, cause really so far if he every week come back then sunday go back... will be so boring and lazy... i also should understand what auntie mind for, is all for him future good, however so mm sei duck also have to pull him out from the bad way to the good way, so... i wish my darling all the best for his's job and....  our relationship will be more good after this big challenge....[this is what in my mind without reapon]

 LOVE YOU MUCH... muackssss

牺牲享受，享受牺牲

hmmm....今天总算哭的有够激烈~眼泪不以为然的掉落，心强烈的被影响~酸酸的感觉.....
你的眼神，你的语言，你的举动...都让我的眼泪塞满眼眶里~
我不善于表达，所以不懂得要怎么告诉你我的心里话~
我告诉你的三个字...就是"不舍得"....
我会不舍得~！！！
真的不懂要怎么过少了你的日子~真可悲....!!!


我一定一定会坚持的~因为我是真的爱你的~
我亲爱的~一起加油吧.....
为了你的将来....多苦都是值得的~
....牺牲，享受....
.....享受，牺牲...

现在02.29 a.m 120.02.2011~
我们的纪念日，一起5个月啦....
爱你比昨天多一些啦~!!! 
muackssss... <3

事实总是残酷的

发着一场下雪的美梦....“pia...” 被电话给吵醒了....真该死！！

过了不久~我亲爱的打来~邀我一起去"捞生"，就和他的顾客们~

那里的菜肴，冷冷的，不能说不好吃，也不是很难吃~就普遍....

..................AFTER LUNCH...............

陪darling工作去.....

我在玩电话，他就在打扫~wuuhuu....

他总让我的视线离不开他的身上，

开心的度过了一天~

但是上天总是残酷的,他给了你开心....同时他也带给你残酷的事实~

虽然我有千万个不愿意，但我也不能阻止这一切,

看着她对你抱着满满的期望，多么不忍心阻止....而且我也没那个能力阻止~

他也说的没错，你不需要顾虑什么~你还没有家庭，应该出去闯一闯~

让自己的前途更好~

他所说的，其实我都听的见，我只能假装不在乎..听不到~！！

当时多么的希望我不在现场，或许现在我会睡得安稳~

一路上容忍着自己的眼泪，说我没什么~你不是去啦~我可以怎样！！

就算或许那不可能发生，但也很有可能会实现~

我只能假装，但我不知道能伪装到什么时候....因为对着你，我是脆弱的~

你看穿了我的心事~但我也只能说...那不是~

倒数吧 shenny~ 

即时生效~！！

我会思念，会挂念更会想念~

爱你~我必须为你你的将来着想~

(when you accidentlly read this, remember don’y laugh on me and say MACAM YES~!! cause this is really my sum xi...dude~)

Shenny day recently~

Date: 31.01.2010 
Day: Monday
Time: 10.06 p.m
Area: Home's Drawing room.


Shenny Gan was get her new phone at saturday, haha...finally she let her w580i rest 99 at home~!! And her's boy was crazy with Iphone, at last he get a Iphone 3Gs at sunday. When back till home, he was busying with his Iphone, download...install...blur blur... Suddenly, he have an idea...let play mahjoong...hahaha, den shenny, eddie, n auntie was hanging at the mahjoong's table. =PROCESSING= Feel like keep coughing on that day, some more raining, and auntie was make a ginger water for me, after i frink that..problem was together coming, plus get in the rain, auntie say that shenny have a little bit fever, let her ate one panadold, then she went to bath, after that immediate go to sleep, and her's boy was still keep going busy with his's iphone~ haha, am she will jealous~ hate Iphone.. blek~ After night, They two was went to a makma store have supper. 
And today, shenny was super double trepper angry, her's mum was going to dye hair at saloon, and she's mum tol her that she can't go fetch min min<younger brother> in the time, ask shenny to follow up her's schedule, but shenny is damn ignore it, cause she was in confuse, she gonna meet up with her's boy, and she gonna fetch her's younger brother as well, the time is totally can't 2 in 1~!! But at last, her's boy was no comment to follow up and wait at the kinegarden for 1 hours, = =", i'm totally in crazy~!!after that her's mum was call shenny again, and ask shenny to bring her's younger brother to have breakfast and fetch him to the saloon... adui~ is totally not enough time to her's boy. Atcually her's boy gonna go cut hair on today, but already not enough time for him to go, cause his's mum was asking him to go the factory to take the beer, after that they still think that they have time to have breakfast, finally~~ but a bad news is coming to them again, his's mum was make sure to her's customer will open the pub at 2 o'clock, shxt dude...no time, take away for self then back home have breakfast, shenny tell herself, "this is the first time that i have the rojak so fast and eat to behind." "Sorry to Him cause i was making him waste many time..." 


Shenny say:
Shenny gonna stick to her's boy whole day on tomorrow, cause wednesday she is going back to Port Dikson for celebrate the CNY festival.... will miss her's boy so so so much... at LAST... she say...."darling....i will follow you....!! hahaha


Good nite.... muacksss

Darling, sorry that i love you, sorry that i hurt you~

But i'm feeling sad now, cause i'm a bad girl that never think for my another part, he care eveything for me, but i just like nothing, don't care...i'm seriously so bad girl...if got a chance to let me turn back for yesterday, i will still choose to out, but i will back early... you did all good thing for me, but how was i respon, i was really a "sweet potato".... y i can't think mature way~!!! why was i so childish... darling was sleeping, i'm no brave and love dearly if i wake him up... he was hurt so bad and angry what i did to him~ i'm regret now, but is all too late for me, even if i say sorry to him, he will not listen to me, just say all is his fault~ i was so touch when i saw ur status, i wan to call you to say, sorry but is too bad that my phone is off, cause no battery... i know i cry is not should for now~ and i should be strong to know what you think to me atcually.... i know all now~ i know i promise to you that i won't late back, but seriously i'm misunderstand, cause i though you coming to join me that mean i can late back, but atcually you is want me back earlier, start from you ask me down from the car, it is the second time you ask me go down, so sad... i just try to call back you to fetch me back home, and i'm sorry~ but i think that you will not care me anymore cause you are gek sum so.... darling, can you forgive me again, can you give me a chance to hold your hand back... can you don't run away and leaf me alone with sadness.... i need you, i really need you, you care our future, but i seem like a games mayb you think... i know that sorry is not enuf~ but i will try my best and change my life as like you... i will show you within now a day~!! darling~ really sorry..... you say you think back your ex girl friends feeling, i'm so sad... i just wanna seem like nothing, but i can't, i care everything about you, although a speech.... what you say, was remind me now... if i gonne from you, i'm really a stupid girl in this worlds~ i just can keep say sorry... but anyway... YOU NEVER FORCE ME~ i reli wanna back when you say daddy will think i going out with you, but you choose to dwn pick me up.... i just can ask daddy to pick me up as fast as can~ just hope to can say sumthing to you. but is too late... you oledy fall to sleep~ darling, i need your respon...

I'm selfish....LOVE SELF......LOVE YOU....LOVE ME.....LOVE BOTH OF US~!! GIMME A CHANCE TO GET BACK OUR FUTURE LIFE~please~

Shenny diary life

Today wake earlier, 5.30 wake ady....darling call to jogging, but donnoe why today we two lazy bum bum,we just walk around the field for 2 round and 15 minute~ hahaha, funny... two lazy pig~ after rest for half hour we went to have breakfast, back home......then...."bath" wuuhuu...syok "bath" ^^, after that read along the news paper for few page then can't tahan ady, feel sleepy..went to sleep...zzzZZzz
Interest we sleep for 4 hour eh..so pro...can feel that how tired we are>.<" after we two was having lunch.... "mian xian" and " pun choi". Say till that, i'm first time ate "pun choi", i'm feeling yiuwww~ what is this dude = = but when ate is tasty also..... yummy yummy~
After 3++ i'm reach my home, asking my mum....why you ever cook the "pun choi" for us gerhx~ then mummy was feeling weird, why i suddenly know have this vege~ hahaha, but she told me that we have didn't cook for celebrate those festival gerhx~ fine, darling let me know more thing~ like like~

.........................................................................................................................................................................When back home, i clean up my room as well.... i saw a photo album, have alot of my photo, when i was a baby girl~ wuhuuu... really so ugly when i was baby girl~ hahaha, when i first sight saw this, my brain is flying out, i gonna share my photo with my lovely hubby~ gonna tell him my long long story, and i also want him share to me when his baby's photo~ blek...sharing to each other is a very sweet thing for me~ First time think that wanna share my photo when i'm baby girl with my another partner~ seem like you are so so so important for me~

haha~ fatty~

shenny with her's boy day

Date: 26.01.2011                     Time 11.53 p.m


Today went to Timesquare with her's hubby darling, the 1st time go to KL by train with her hubby. Funny, special, fresh~!!! I like it <3 
Watch 《homecoming》 a movie that from Singapore~ A funny movie, a bit touch, a story about chinese new year, a traditional family reunion dinner. Is important for every family~!! Chinese New Year is coming around to us, everyone is preparing their home new year thing, but home is quit silent for this chinese new year, cuz my daddy side are not going to celebrate for, just because my grandma was pass aways for last year, in our hokkien traditional, we gonna stop for celebrate every festival for 3 year...next year just can celebrate~ hopeless~!! wuuhuu... 
But we gonna back to grandmother house to celebrate their chinese new year, mummy side~ miss my cousin and  nephew all~ miss the moment when celebrate together~!! happy...hope next time, i can bring the happiness for my another part~!! cause i hope he was happy every time....will have chance to bring it to him~!! i hopeless too~!!


Darling was telling me something when he fetch me til home outside, he say:" when i send you reach home, i will start to worry you, isit you gonna hang out without telling me. Just can scould self too worry you, Did you feel that i'm forcing you." Yea, seriously my darling are so cute, he say he don't mind, but self jealous when i told him that i gonna hang out with someone, mouth say don't care, go ahead~ but heart think that gonna kill the guy~!! haha, just wanna let him know~ i'm seriously love him much, i oledy using all my energy to him, but too bad, he say he can't feel it, maybe is my problem, cause i really do know how to show him my love~!!! Everyone can't stop me to do anything that i want to do, include my parent...but dunoe why, you are the one can stop me, you are the one i never ever think that wanna hate you, scold you when you stop me... i'm weird~ i know.... i dunoe how much i love him, but i know......it oledy fall to deep.....you are the special one for me~ and you are the only one for me....
stop to ask me" did you feel that i force you?" Now i'm telling you the fantabulous answer~ if i really feel that i wanna out for those place or what else, i will asking you please~ realize let me go~ so darling~!! your worry, i get it~!!! trust me, belive me~ i love you~






The end..... 12.36 a.m
tomorrow gonna wake early to jogginng with my hubby~ <3 enjoy~!!!

Happy today

hem hem~ i'm so good today, stay at home for whole day...heehee~ today eyes so swollen~!! omgah.. pain for half day, shit~!!
Now feel abit sore throat, do know why.... Today i didn't meet with my boy eh, sob sob... miss him badly, but will meet up tomorrow, dunoe he gt read my blog later not~ he will getting angry so... i swear~!! hahaha, but hope him dun misunderstand, i just share what was happen for my feeling yesterday~!! tell you, today i'm nothing, forget all those sad thing... Just seem like apart of my life i need to pass it~!! happy happy pass my life with you eh~!! darling...

Sudden miss sushi much~!! seem like long time no eat jorhx, will have it one day... blek~!! And mocha also~!! omgah... AV is coming to meeeeee.... cause i keep feel hungry eh~ alamak... chinese new year coming soon eh, mm hou AV arhx...mm goi~!!!

<3 miss miss <3 i love you... muackssss~ Eddie Ng Eng Eng, my lovely boy...

someone was misunderstand i guess

I think someone is misunderstand for my blog that i wrote for last few day, but just i think...mayb they is not talking about my thing or what else. I'm going to explain at here, i'm not going to ask you guy or explain those thing about the I DON'T CARE~


I hope that someone don't "sit at the place with the number", i'm not saying you guy, and i just saying of what i'm thinking only! if really make you all misunderstand, i just can apologize to you all at here. But i think is useless for me. Recently, know that i make you all disappointed, unhappy, dislike and more than that, i just can say this is what to call coincident~
I'm not intentionally!!!
We have the distance in between of us. 
Jealous, is i make for myself.
The Last, in you all heart....."hate me, angry me, scolding me...." i accept
The End, you all think that i'm change, but atcually i'm same...just less hang out with you all.....




Speechless for everything happen in between of us!!!

Shenny was in happy mood today

Date: 20.01.2011                 Time: 01.43 a.m


19.01.2011, i FFK to my jimui ytd, they date me to timesquare, but i didn't have money to go then i choose to not attend~!! but look like they still happy without me...am i jealous? whatever, no one care~ just forget it~~!


Went out with my dear; Yoshiko, and sweetie; Rineii.. firstly we go to pasar malam. damn alot of people eh, sweetie say she been long time didn't walk rawang's pasar malam ady, last few month also at Setapak keep studying, have no time to go for. They wanna to eat "smelly taufu", i propose to stand far far, cause i dislike the smell >.< but when sit near the smell is ok, but also beh tahan~ we meet Chan Yin and Wei Hao at the "smelly taufu" area... Chan Yin was change a lot, sweetie ask him:" where is mine Bosco?" cause Chan Yin was change a lot, become uncle look ady @@, Wei Hao is became tall and tall...wuuu....think that last time he is same high with me, now stand beside him, me like standard 3 student >.< i have meet my auntie and my cousin sister, she just out from hospital, operation... rest at my auntie house easy for my auntie to take care about it. 
After that we have go to WTC cafe, the cafe was change like so darkly place, look so quite, and some weird feeling there~ 3 of us was chit chat like crazy lady, chat about ours boy friends, totally feel that we have 3 different style of boy friends. Dear have a "women" boy friend to care all her's thing. Sweetie have a so so “men+blur" boy friend, need to push straight away, dislike roundabout, cause he will dunoe what you want to let him know atcually. And me, i have a "a bit gangster, a bit men, a bit small men, a bit cute, a bit... and a bit...all plus together is 100% my lovely men..[crazy laughing]. Last time form 4 we have a date, to see after the date isit our boy friends is still the same, crazy... the conclusion is, we have been change... !! We are a bit weird and so so glad to meet to our other half, feel weird cause we was thinking about, how was we can together with? Is really funny, we can be with together! isit this call "serendipity", we have to cherish each other, in a world that we can meet is really a easy thing, but in a world we can be with together and without any suggestion, is really call "serendipity"~ 
And i know clearly, I LOVE YOU, I CHERISH YOU, I NEVER HURT YOU, and I WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU~!! This is what i know clearly what i did~!! I will never ever care about how does people look over me, say me care boyfriend more than friends, or those suck reason, don't say that to me, cause you haven't meet someone can make you cherish, so... don't try to talk such negative thing to me... I DON'T CARE~!!

                                                                     THE END~^^

Shenny have a new hair color for CNY~

Last few day have been like busy day i have...maybe~ cause quit long, i already forget it >.<"


Just from yesterday lolx~
 i have been to a saloon to bought a color for hair ;

Dark brown, but the color that i dye out is really can see is BROWN~
I when to Rineii's house to dye it..
1st, i help her dye 1st, after that is my turn to let her dye~ her's hair was in hold for 1 hour.. wow~ if not her's sister come back and told her that her;s hair color was change to "Yellow Gold" is really scary us~ Rineii fast run to bathroom to clean it up~ The color come out is inside yellow, upper is a bit gold, inside is the brown that we need, is a good highlight!!


And i was get syok then i just hold for 15 minute then i was went to wash it up.. wuuhuu~ my color is nice, is what we want, but maybe before this my hair was light brown, so this give me is really nothing >.< but still can accept~ ^^Y
Middle of this part, was happen something unhappy with my darling, but after that we was settle, be alrite then... <3 <3 sweet sweet love~ silly darling, really make me have many different memory, funny, sad, worry, angry...happy... romanc....and sososososos~ fall to him like crazy.. love him much~ and miss him badly~


My new hair color~

looooook like dark rite~!!! hmmm... need to custom it need more time~

shenny crazy with red wine

Date: 13.01.2011                        Time: 11.02 p.m


Today mummy was open the red wine for me... <3 crazy, i have 3 glassed just now~ now abit blur blur ady~!! but still feel awake...Donoe i was because sad or i'm too happy, why i drink so much @@...
I miss my darling badly...mayb dis is the main point~
I feel that i'm HOT now.... become red body girl~ haha, tomorrow class 1++ to 2++ tired lorhx~ 1 hour only, waste my money eh..aiks~ sien!! tomorrow till home, what can do eh? nite kye er date me yum cha.... Yumcha, just now 2 gang of friends date me out too, but i should be fair, den i choose to stay home, cause dwn both of them be unhappy within~ Bore lorhx, pity me~!! 

Shenny crazy in love

Diary for nothing~ =)

Today can say i really feel tired, normal day i less sleep nap, but today i sleep till 8++...wow, can see how tired that i for today wake early~ i wake also my dar massage wake me up, he come a suddenly sweet massage~ haha, immediate get sweet form him... like like~!!! he make me miss him more..
After that my friends was date to yum cha, but someone is change to other, she is under control by his boy~!! funny~ if she didn't go den i suspose to be the only one girl!!! i don't wan eh, den i change it to others day~ seriously i will face black to her's boy next time~!! beh tahan...atcually i also same v him, need to take promission v my dar, but he sure will let but not hang too late~^^Y this is not stop, just respect, to let each other know whereabout now~ "you 2" gonna learn clearly from the "respect" word lolx~
Yuuhuu.... tomorrow can meet with my dar, getting crazy two day didn't meet v him, miss him super dubber badly... god~!!!! love love love <3 Just now sleep too long, can't sleep tonite ady~ force my dar to accompany me~!! muahahaha

Shenny crazy with it~

10.01.2011        Time: 9.50 p.m




Dairy about " MY DAY, ON TODAY"


Wake early in the morning on today, my class was at time 12.15 p.m but i'm awake at time 8.15 a.m, why... my mum was wake me up crazy!! She is asking me follow her to bring my little brother to kindergarten, after fetch him go was going have breakfast together~
Train was pitch me up earlier to KL central today, immediate call to my babe; jenilee, owh~ she just going to the LRT station from her's house~ then no choice gonna wait at KL central for few minute, and have my second breakfast again~ One word to appearance my second breakfast "FAT", cause i have KFC >.<, ; mitch potato~~
On that time was also keep in touch with my dar as well~ if not really will so bore men~!!! He tol me many about my parent's thing~ mayb he is saying the true with me~ but why i can't accept it?? isit "he" really make me feel so disappointed and also annoying~!! i just feel like i wanna ignore it...dar, not i dowan listen what you say, but i was really toilsome to be what you tell me,what the problem~I make you disappointed~sorry I can't pretend like nothing to talk with him, even face to him i also ignore~!!! I was trying my best for the "sick off" to be in "like" and "accept it", but when just now i was back home~ I saw him there, ii naturally immediate run to my room and hide inside the room from 7++ to now the time.... 
I was asking my mum a abstrusity question:" mummy, why was my dad make me feel so disgusting~ what the problem?"
My mum:" Girl, this question you suspose to ask yourself as well, everything is in your mind... what can i answer for, your dad is loving you much, just can say he love the way is the wrong way to be concerned with~ He more protect you, you will feel more disgusting with him. I just can say, he is your dad forever for now a day, you using everything is his's work hard and get the money to make the requirement that you want! However he are preciseness, not like other's people's father have a freedom for them can hang to the time that they like, you should accept, cause your dad is start from scare you get hurt's mentality to control you...!! Now is mummy turn to ask you back
Mummy:" think about it, isit you really so hate your daddy, from you standard six say till now you hate your daddy, isit this is true, you hate your dad?? Think about it tonight~ 
................................................I have stop to saying anything for it.......................................................
This question is keep appear on thinking now.... but i'm confuse!!!! Who can really give me a good explanation~!!
Dar... i need you as well...!!! custom to be in your breast when i was in tired, i was lost my way~!!!! MISS YOU MUCH~ you are busying, i know... i'm waiting you....!!! <3
Finish this, i was feeling hungry.... Hungry BUM BUM~!!! GODSSS.... =S

Shenny is in moody

Sunday 09.01.2011             Time 11.22 p.m


Today diary about Parent~
Donoe isit me too focuz in myself or my parent are damn make me annoying~ 
 What the reason they tol me juz now~ we oledy 1 week more didn't meet with you~ morning go out then till night just come back~ you tot here is your hotel? My mum say my dad complain, say he didn't meet me for 1 week, wanna meet me also hard, my daughter like ppl's daughter now, wanna meet me like gonna make appointment as well~
And my comment is~ i stay at home also same what, hide inside the room, he can't see me also. say though stupid reason for what, i have nothing to say to him anymore, he is really a daddy damn preciseness in this world~ i have no comment to him~!!!
How to say?~ i stay home, nth to do, online inside the room and his comment is, i wan cut it off the line ady, keep hide inside the room, no heart to focus in mt study~ 
I hang out with my friends, and his comment is, always hang out till night just back home, you don't too over i tell you~ don't let me scold your friends together~!!
I sit at parlour watch tv, you damn no manners, straigh away turn to others channel that you wanna to watch it~!! 


i really can't handle it~ hang out can't!! watch tv can't~!!! hide inside the room can't~!!!! shxt you~ still many comment there~!!
Tomorrow last day to pass up the college fee~ you dowan sign it, wut the... how old are you orhx, still like children get in to the huff~!!! take this school thing to get off ur angry mood~!! How old are you~!! see you gonna get angry how many days, and the fee, 1 day add 1 ringgit... money from you, i don't care... really stupid fellow~!!! be clever larhx~!!! "DADDY" >.<

                                                   END

when shenny can'y fall to sleep

09-01-2010           midnite 2.13 a.m


REASON; Can't fall to sleep over the night~!!
Morning went out to have breakfast with my boy, is normal.. everyday have time will always have it together~ ^^, after evening 6++ was accompany him to his pub and chit chat at there. Have a good news, is i was getting more increase about the snooker skill.. but is also so "cha" eh~ darling was always say me noob >.<" After more few hours was sitting and playing at the pub, he trying to hit me 99, walao eh... he is terrible meh, so "han sum" but i'm not lose also... hit him back~ but at last i'm cry like child~ cause i'm in hurt meh... he really crazy bum bum~ but this is our temperament and interest~ Happy then ok lolx... ^^Y
After that we start to back from country home, when on the way, he is getting crazy inside the car, keep dance like nothing~ but i know he is trying to make me happy~ i was always laugh like crazy lady~ hahaha, with him really no any pressure... i love every moment with him.. he will make me laugh and also make me cry lolx~
Tot wanna go have mcdonald, but last change to WTC cafe, i have a moca blanded, and him was have heneiken~ yeap...beer lolx~ till half was meet his'friends, then join together, his friends was order one busket Tiger beer, seem like his friend is in bad mood~ he have alot of problem n pressure~ no one can help him i guess~ so scare my dar was drink like him, was worry them too~ cause he was have it at his own pub ady~ can't have it anymore~ 
Till half tot wanna take away chicken wing for my little two brother [kang kang & min min] but the fellow is damn LC and aso need wait so long, at last i cancel it~!! Before back home~ i was did a really will let his's friends misunderstand's thing~ i just simply wanna pull the cup to in abit, but unquarded fall out abit, his friend was misunderstand that i was in angry cause he keep ask him drink beer~ funny... although i was dislike, but i also won't did this gerhx~ leave a face to him marhx~!! but his's friends was already think that, aikss~ just let it be~ just be stinker lorhx~ muahahahaha....
Back till home, chit chat with my mum, she is make me cry again~ every time chit chat with mummy also will cry~ 
Ask me why recently like very no manners~ why like dislike talk with them... why infront of my dad also dowan call him, as a daughter like me is really no use~!! wtf... no use!!! what i suspost to talk to you guy? i talk to dad, but what his respon?? nth...just a black face to me~!! better then i dowan talk to him~ just hide self inside the room better~ tell him get scold, didn't tell him also get scold, so that i choose stay silent, don't say anything to him better, this is the good choice for each others... "hear no about" good for everyone too~ mum say i'm only 19, what can i do without my dad, yes! i'm only 19, i have no choice, i should stay with him, listen to him, whatever is without unreasonable... so that i be silent~ be a good girl that he wanted~!! isit~!!! i'm waiting my age growing... FREEDOM without parent is waiting me not far ago~!!!!




                                                     FINISH AT TIME 02.49 a.m
                                                     ~tHe EnD~

Shenny is cowardice girl~

Diary for 04 january 2011


Wednesday n Thurday no class, no need to attend to coll~  ii went to accom darling at his pub~ darling teach me how to play pool... firstly really feel hand abit pain pain... is because i dunoe how to handle the pool stick, but after more few round, i'm getting more improve... but also like shxt player..hahaha!! need to focus, know the area in gud thinking way... and i was in simply mood~!! gonna serious next time.. :P darling.. TEach me more yarhx^^Y




Diary for 05 january 2011


Darling wake me at 9++, early in the morning~ hang at his house for half day... dis is our life meh~!!! enjoy bum bum... :P last month always have lunch or dinner together, now have it at own house like abit can't custom eh, how come eh?? like less some thing... aiksss~!!!  he already become apart of my life.....miss so much when he not around me... officially missing him... muahaha
Night hang to pasar malam with friend, buy alot of food~ i keep focus on those yummy food... mummy is complain to me, she cook many, but i went to pasar malam...bad girl~ after that go yum cha v others friends~ they chit chat is damn funny... i keep laugh for them.... 
12.58 a.m  
massage to you...
when the reply is from maxis, n the reply is about...:
Your SMS didn't reach 0172xxxxx7 as the phone is switched off.....
what the try to call~ fly to mail box!!! damn worry~!!
i can swear my heart is because of this jump like gonna die~ all negative thing is fly around my brain~!! fxxx...
damn hate those negative thinking...shxt~!!! hope will not have nxt time... if not will get sick...god~!!!


PS: the thing has been past~ just let it past~!! i love my life now with all the moment with my lover~!! bless me, if you can~!!! 

shenny day on 03-01-2010

Hmm...finally today start to skull ady, abit can't custom.... back to my train life! Today class til 6++ but our lecture so good, she let us back earlier, 4++ oledy can back...but go till kl central also need to wait 20 minute more, train so late just arrive~

Tomorrow is 04-01-2010, so fast i pass my NS life for 1 years.... 

haha, miss the life when in camp with you guy, [ my jiumui ] 

we have been in NS for 2 month more... everything is been settle down, noneed we worry more~

happy or angry, sad or joyous we was done together~ is a very got memories to us....



Hmmm... Now the time is 09.23 p.m, i have never meet my darling for 16 hours more, how come can like that, i'm seriously miss him badly, but he is working, i can't complain what, cause this is what he suspost to do~!! And i have school also, can't meet at the night, we just keep in touch at contact~ will meet when darling was free and i was not school..hahaha....darling was trying best for his life to be so much the better, then he can no need to rely on anyone~ just pass with himself~!! great for him... ^^Y gayao~gayao... $_$

My exam result is expedite on 24 january... worry eh, my classmate keep say:" prepare money to retake." i do want to retake eh~ waste time, waste money~!!! hope my exam "shun shun ki" heeheehee....