knowledge

Now a day, many thing i just will get know from their blog or those connection web. Although last time we are friend like hell, but till the end i will not be the most understand them. Recently what are they doing, anything happen between them? I do know, seriously...feel so deeply unhappy. I just can kept it all my question mark in my mind. Maybe one day.....[ hope you all in happy]


Shenny was always countdown for the day that we can meet together, today will be the last February day, March you will be at there rite, don't even tell me you will not be there so soon, but i know you are cheating me rite, you will be there soon rite.... i didn't have any request, i just hope i can pull all my time, i just wanna spend my time on you. This time i'm seriously can't custom ~!! I don't wanna hear you say you will be there tomorrow, i hate you always play with me like this, i will really upset~!!


I remember last time you ask me inside the car, " how to say if i accidently tomorrow gonna go, you will be ok right?" And that time actually my heart was like get fire burning, but i just smile on you. this is only one response i can give. At the same time you ask me this question too, " If i say i don want to attend the job any more, how was your feel?" I remember last time i answer you this, " don't give any hope, i scare i will disappointed after you never do this." Actually my heart have million of hope you don want go. But i know i was dreaming, i won't dream come true, slowly feel that i'm so selfish, i selfish to want you be with me forever, sudden think that i'm childish, like a small girl thinking. But i hope everything will be so fine n fine~ 


Tomorrow have a class, early in the morning, should sleep early... but i haven't done all the graph. my godness~!! will get "gun" shot tomorrow... 


                                                                The End for today....<3>

Xue Ni~

Today was wake earlier like normal, wait all my family member wake up go have breakfast together. But too bad, i wake at 9++ wash my clothe, the time is almost 10, but they haven't awake... god~!! 11++ just went to have breakfast. Finish my breakfast then go saloon meet my darling, he went to cut hair, he cut a short hair but not too short, all because " jimat "~ After that we went back home, half on the way, we go take away "rojak mee, and ABC" back home to enjoy together... I say share with him, but at last he go cook maggie to eat, cause the food is just half way on his stomach. Auntie told us that dinner we gonna go have steamboat ; at steamboat king restaurant. 
.....at the time we have a long nap......
5++ i was awake, and auntie is playing her's iphone, darling is still in sweet dream. Watching tv till 7 prepare to have dinner. The steamboat food is quit ok, but their sea foods is so bad, and i was get itchy on that time, do know why. too bad~ desert ice-cream. 
And i was forget today i request to my dar to go watch movie, and he remember but told me last minute, actually he wanna watch night movie, but i have class tomorrow so cancel it, but he was funny, he buy a video movie back home and watch inside the room, romantic... air-con, just didn't have pop-corn~ But for me already so contented. Thx darling to content me that i want to watch movie. love you much. 
When you gonna go for work? Shenny can ask for stay??


Day: Sunday
Date: 27.02.2011
Time: 12.30 a.m


                                                 The End

Shenny “Fantabulous”

Give me a reason that why recently i wake so earlier...hmm..maybe i sleep enough...

Do know countdown for how many day ady lorhx...!!

Yesterday night have dim sum at Darling house, yummy... have it together feel so warm!! i love it.. hope i can have it everyday...accidently hear you say you will start your work on next month. Hmm... too bad, start to worry lorhx...but what to do, can't do anything anymore...Stop here..enough!!

Just pass here for awhile....to be continue....

Pain life

Recently really feel that my body so weak, cough, flu, fever....some more gastric~!! have a terrible pain~!! wut the~!!! Ate many different type of medicine, but useless...weakness body i have~!! Today 1st day i went back to coll, a bit can't custom, when the alarm was ring, i was turn off it, and still stick v the bed and my blanket, so warm~ didn't have the mood to went to the class.
When wake up gastric again, and also a bit stomach pain, inside have a lot of AIR~!! I think that my Auntie gonna Visit me soon, so make me not feeling well this few week...bad mood! And very serious is i was vomit on yesterday, cause i have ate the ginger soup... maybe too full already~
My lovely get me a cup of herb's drink just now, control up my cough. i think i really need to go for a medical check up, if not keep pain also useless~!!! He care me a lot, thank my darling... love you much, muacksss~ <3


And last, should i cut short hair... 
Darling idea, never try, never know....
friend idea, wow, what happen to you, serious wan cut so short arhx, don't regret meh? think properly eh... later cut ady can't do anything ady lolx.
Mine, i wanna cut, but what short's hair style should i cut for.. think think think... hmmm (o.o)


Sleepy... good night lorhx, ate flu medicine feel sleepy again, stay strong, ms.shenny~


Date: 22.02.2011
Time: 12.39 a.m
Day: Monday -> Tuesday 

The day was changing to DARK

Date: 18.02.2011
Time: 12.56 a.m
Day: Thurday [midnight]

Shenny was crying badly here, why... cause some one that important; most lovely people was going to leave her and go for attend a job at far away...So apologize that i can't accompany him all the way. I will take care myself without you, i will eat medicine, drink more water, remember all the thing that you want me to care. I will try my best to custom all the day without you.
Darling, i already start to miss you much... let me hug you once again, tightly hugging you!!! You ask me to stay strong, don't easy to give up....ask me wait you back~ Dar, no worry... i will wait you back although 1 year more.... my heart now was like get burn harder~!! Tear was not keeping keep dropping on my eyes... how pain, how love dearly, how mm sek duck that i have.... 
Shenny Gan, no more crying, no more complain... He is just go for work few year, not really ever and never coming back...believe him and trust him... listen what he say... wait him back~!!! This is the one challenge in our life... 5 year... very fast...trust self trust him...
Love you....more than i can say....
meet you next day.....didn't have a date to comfirm....

when i was lame at home

Something make me feel WEIRD~!!

Last time you guy not very hate both gerhx meh? Still ask me dowan contact with both tim, but now seem like so best friend dude~ hmm.... really weird~!! last time you hate me i hate you... now WAW.... so best friend... [simply share sudden mind] @@

Valentine's day... Again celebrate with my dad's birthday, have dinner at outside with family... 

...HAPPY...

But i'm sick after that... caugh, flu and start fever at the midnight, my eldest brother take medical for me when i was blur.... New year haven't finish already sick like hell... what the...

During the New Year, i really fat alot... must keep fit after my dar go to Penang work... when he was there, i will automatic slim down, cause i will miss him much... Hope he have a good result for his work... Friday was coming, darling really will go to attend for the job, mm seh duck dude.... but what to do, gonna accept also... and i must be a guai lui at here, if not he will so worry, can't stay a strong heart at there...!! Darling, our challenge is coming, cherish all the time with you... love you, muacksss~ <3

Just now auntie again talking the same topic, :" i also mm sei duck eddie go so far work, but what to do... he still young gonna go for a try get more knowledge, i'm regret last time hold him tight never let him go learn some useful thing, want him stay at the pub also useless, still so young keep drink keep smoke also not a good choice for him, his's sister also ask why want him go so far to work, so.. you want follow us to penang have a look."

For my respon is... even those i really can't accept he go so far for work and not really every week come back, cause really so far if he every week come back then sunday go back... will be so boring and lazy... i also should understand what auntie mind for, is all for him future good, however so mm sei duck also have to pull him out from the bad way to the good way, so... i wish my darling all the best for his's job and....  our relationship will be more good after this big challenge....[this is what in my mind without reapon]

 LOVE YOU MUCH... muackssss

牺牲享受，享受牺牲

hmmm....今天总算哭的有够激烈~眼泪不以为然的掉落，心强烈的被影响~酸酸的感觉.....
你的眼神，你的语言，你的举动...都让我的眼泪塞满眼眶里~
我不善于表达，所以不懂得要怎么告诉你我的心里话~
我告诉你的三个字...就是"不舍得"....
我会不舍得~！！！
真的不懂要怎么过少了你的日子~真可悲....!!!


我一定一定会坚持的~因为我是真的爱你的~
我亲爱的~一起加油吧.....
为了你的将来....多苦都是值得的~
....牺牲，享受....
.....享受，牺牲...

现在02.29 a.m 120.02.2011~
我们的纪念日，一起5个月啦....
爱你比昨天多一些啦~!!! 
muackssss... <3

事实总是残酷的

发着一场下雪的美梦....“pia...” 被电话给吵醒了....真该死！！

过了不久~我亲爱的打来~邀我一起去"捞生"，就和他的顾客们~

那里的菜肴，冷冷的，不能说不好吃，也不是很难吃~就普遍....

..................AFTER LUNCH...............

陪darling工作去.....

我在玩电话，他就在打扫~wuuhuu....

他总让我的视线离不开他的身上，

开心的度过了一天~

但是上天总是残酷的,他给了你开心....同时他也带给你残酷的事实~

虽然我有千万个不愿意，但我也不能阻止这一切,

看着她对你抱着满满的期望，多么不忍心阻止....而且我也没那个能力阻止~

他也说的没错，你不需要顾虑什么~你还没有家庭，应该出去闯一闯~

让自己的前途更好~

他所说的，其实我都听的见，我只能假装不在乎..听不到~！！

当时多么的希望我不在现场，或许现在我会睡得安稳~

一路上容忍着自己的眼泪，说我没什么~你不是去啦~我可以怎样！！

就算或许那不可能发生，但也很有可能会实现~

我只能假装，但我不知道能伪装到什么时候....因为对着你，我是脆弱的~

你看穿了我的心事~但我也只能说...那不是~

倒数吧 shenny~ 

即时生效~！！

我会思念，会挂念更会想念~

爱你~我必须为你你的将来着想~

(when you accidentlly read this, remember don’y laugh on me and say MACAM YES~!! cause this is really my sum xi...dude~)